Mawarmerah

salam,

Salam ramadhan..its the second day of fasting. Iam sure yesterday you would break it with a lot of variety foods on the table. Of course, there were the ikan bakar, cendol, kuih-muih, air bandung, date and a lot more. I could image, it such a wonderful time espcially break with beloved family. How I missed that moment..miss so much….

I still remember, me as the eldest, prepared all those foods. And break with my family. All sit at one table…while waiting for the athan to recite, each of us mumbling for nothing..then, when the athan recite, we like thunderstorm attacked all the foods..just like crazy..oh god..that was past. Its now totally different…

Yesterday, I break fast with all my frens in Churchill. Where is churchill someway over the rainbow..owwhh just kidding. It would take you 2 hours drive from city. Cant you image how far is that?..though it is far, its a peacefull place.eemmm just forget about that..Yeap, yesterday was also fun. Besides eating, we all could talk about studies and so on.And the foods, marvellous!…

Yupp..now its getting 12pm..i cant start writing even a word. I have promised myself to write at least two pages. I try my best. I got another 3 minutes to write at here…..

Next week, my mum will be coming back to Malaysia. Every now and then, I am keep thinking of her. I am gonna miss her for sure. Yesterday, she told me that she would cry to leave us..oh mum NO!…and yet, she’s gonna miss her grandchild NUha..I believed and swear to God Nuha would miss her too…of course, she’s sleeping with my mum since her first day born..everything A to Z, my mum handles her. I am sure, she’s taking care of Nuha just like me twenty seven years ago….

While writing this, i am wanna cry..I miss you mum and love her so much. No others word replace her love…I hope that by next year, she could meet Nuha again..and I hope Nuha will always remember her grandma just like her mum …amin…

Mummy..i loved you..mummy thanks for everthing….I love you so much….

I awaked very late today. I looked at the door, there’s hanging my white pale watch which I donnut sure its age. It was 8 am. I woke and stop my feet at the laundry. I said to myself it’s time to wash all the clothes. Yeah, it has been one week not to wash it. I press the button of the machine and its started to do the job.I was talking to myself that I felt very sleepless than the other days. I am not sure?..I couldnot get the answer. My mind kept thinking but I let it not to congure myself.Later on, I moved my step to the living room…it’s sunny day…so pleased and peacefull..I took a deep breath and said thank God…

It’s first day of fasting. Alhamdullilah, Allah has given me the opportunity to breath and having the fast. And yet, this time fasting with my family (hubby and Nuha). How should I not thank for all these?

After, preparing to Uni, I was let myself to clean up the kicthen and the laundry again. I feel comfort now to leave my home. You know..home sweet home..Pop-in the car and hubby sent me to the office.

At the office, Istarted my day by reading the online-paper.Later,I read a lot on the journals..but the concentration is less..don know why?..i guess read a lot would let yourself drawn..isnt it?..oh No…by October I need to complete all my writing. As I have a new supervisor..so the confirmation candidature is postponed…errmmm..its a long story..but I will let you know someday..

Emmm…i guess i wanna move out…its time for praying….till then..salam

p/s: Oh ya..please enjoy your dinner today as that what encouraged by our Prohphet Muhammad S.A.W..and me can’t wait to break the fast at my fren house..

Time flies so fast, wheather we noticed or not it is already reach the end of the year. Well, so many things happened and changed mylife. I am now turn to other person whom for sure burden with many responsibilities. I am as a mum, wife and student. Really don’t believe it! but i am thanked to Allah given me a change to be what I want to be.

As a wife to a humble husband, of course no other thing is be obedient. He is the one that i am rely with. Hopefully my partner till the end of my life…amin!

As a mum to a cutey pumpkin Nuha, of course i want to love her. i want her to be a good child in future and contribute a good thing to family….amin!

As a student to a strict supervisor, of course i want to complete my study.It is not easy to say, there’s a lot of explaination which sometimes I coudnot tell…..but what I want is to finish my study as ths is one of my dreams…amin!

Assalamualaikum to all dearly frens,

The day that i’ve been waiting for such a long time has come. I am not sure about it..or actually it was a dreamt that would be passing by me…I hope it would be the reality….After taking a long thought of a big decision in my life and after a sweet talk with my fiance..we actually had come to the final desicion…which so called ‘the promising day’..ya I guess i was about doing the not right decision(people said it so) but then it was the final decision that actually will reflect my whole life…At first, when I proposed the matter to my beloved family they argued with the decision which they said it was still early and I should consider my study first. Ya, it is true that we need hear whatever our family talk and advise..but then it again comes to our decision….I know my mum at this moment not satisfied with my decision but i am pretty sure she will agree and bless my decision….Insyaallah by next week, I will give an official invitation to all my frens…

P/S: Hoping that this is my Mr Right at the right time

assalamualaikum my dearest frens…

I guess, it was a long silence since i received the offer from KUSTEM..ya right..my days full with a lot of activities that sometimes make me feel bored and tired….rite now am bussying myself preparing the PHD proposal which i don’t really confidence or qualified to do it!hahaha..i could say it almost completed 80%…but the other 20%..stuck with the theoretical framework…i could say im the first malaysian kut do that kind of research…ape tak yer…cari2 gak for the related journals…ya ALLAH nak menangis rasa….but i think this is something fun and adventure..ni tengah waiting for my IETLS results…At first i wish to go for UK universities..tapi bila dah duk exam tu..baru tau english yang depa gunakan guite susah…. :(tapi tak pe…i know that i could it…"go..go…chaiyok!" , i am also bussying with the class at MIIM (akademi TV3)…need to prepare for their notes, quizzes and assignment….oh my days!…

assalamualaikum….
selamat raya..since we still in raya mood so i think its still ok for me to wish everyone..last day, i went to KUSTEM for PHD briefing..its quite tought for me especially the conditions for me to follow. One for sure i have to fly before 30th september 2007. Next year I should be in UK insyaALLAH….emm a bit challenge for me…leave my family…***SOB***…..I met my KJ (ketua Jabatan of marketing and management ) i got the thesis entitled..its “Operational Scheduling in Malaysia for ‘make to order’ Company”..its tought for me since i am completed my masters in marketing…
So, for these two months i need to do:
1) sit for english test
2) finish up my proposal
3) search for university in UK ( my KJ recommed me at Lancester University but i got to deal wit one of the lecturer to be my supervisor..Prof Dr Linda Hendry..wat a coincidence her name just like mine..hehehehehe)
4) BTN (biro tatanegara)
5) VISA and Passport

alhamdullilah i just received the official letter from KUSTEM to further my study at overseas..i m given 6 months to complete my PHD proposal and search for my place to study…..arrhhhh so much2 works to do…but how do i want to say NO..this is my dream…i just tried my best to achieve my dream..at the same time m also gonna busy with my wedding preparation……my frens any place do you suggest me to study?….

Hari raya pertama disambut begitu sederhana berbanding tahun sebelumnya…kalini kami sekeluarga balik ke kampung belah bapak melawat nenek saya yang dengar khabaryer dah menjalani pembedahan mata..n surprisedly, mata nenek belah kanan dah buta..sedihnya….. perjalanan ke kampung mengambil masa 2jam setengah…sesampai jer kat kampung terus cari nenek kat umah akak bapak…tapi dia tak ader kat situ..dia dah pi umah abang bapak…jadi kamipun decided pegi ke umah abang bapak yang satu lagi..pakcik rahman…… rumah pakcik rahman adalah umah nenek saya yang sebenar…..umah dia skang tengah renovate…cuba lihat gambar sebelah kiri…itulah umah nenek…..dah lepak almost an hour kat situ, kami brtolak ke umah abang bapak yang lagi satu….pakcik asnawi…kat situlah nenk saya berada skang…… dah sampai di sana, terus jumpa nenek…tapi tak dapat recognize kita orang bab dia dah tak nampak….so sad : (….kita orang cakap ngan diapun dah tak seperti dulu….

rasayer dah lama tak jumpa kawan2 BFIN….dah jumpa hari tu..tergambar kegembiraan yang teramat..walaupun almost of ex-BFIN students tak dapat menghadirkan diri…but its still meriah..espcially bila KAPTEN kita orang turun padang sama…sapa agi kalau bukan DEDz….lebih kurang 6 of us dah berkumpul pada pukul 7.15pm…then after 10 minutes breaking the fast another 2 our frens came up…MUJE N ABEH….we’re breaking the fast at PIZZA restaurant…it was fun and cheers..we sharing many stories…one that surprised me safira is tied the knot….WOW….after enjoying the food for almost 30 minutes, we went to pray…n then toward to bowling center..we’re going to have a competition..PERGH!…i hate so much playing bowling cos i’m not good enough in that game.. we were separated in two groups..first group were me, wani (shell), shafira n azhar..while, the other team was abe,muje, dedz n wani-king….as the result, my team was lost…(*Sob*)..n for sure im the one who responsible for the lost…after all, it was fun and happy meeting all my frens.. : )

Pada 20hb adalah hari terakhir kak cma (bertudung merah jambu)bekerja di SAL College…selepasni dia akan mula bekrja di Kulim….selama mengenali kak cma, orangyer sensitif, kuat menolong orang n ready to critise in whatever she dislikes…apapun mengenali yer for almost 6 months is enough for me to know who she….kak cma thanks for everything n do keep in touch.